An escape from the shackles in my thoughts ...

do you see what i see
the clearness of thought
the unrestricted , open communion of reflection
of how the sluggish rays graze the water
how the petals caress the ripples
how the stream of light outlines the vulnerability of the water
how the sun accentuates the silhouette of the lone tree
how the flowers drape the cool breeze
how the sun rolls over the green facade
flowing with the water, the petals seem uninhibited in motion
As if the water determines their fate
and they drift away obliviously

Something in this place strikes a chord
brings the ebbing inspiration to life
it brings syllables to the surface of my mind
and i begin to weave them into words around this sight
it revives me from my deep slumber that i live in
the haze , that clouds my subconscious , that confines my perception
the haze that i call rationality
but when the mind opens to the richness of thought that is before me
I realize how exquisite life could be

Seems like I've been here before,
the familiarity astounds me
is it a deja vu or a distant memory
or are these flashes of some forgotten areas of my mind
like somebody wakes me up from a deep reverie
and im jolted back to consciousness
and in this conscious state, i feel integrated , i feel at home with this place around me

for now, its not the photos, its not the endless films that would trap this vision
it is the richness of mind , the sagacity of thought
the memory of which i keep in these words
it is my perception that i shall ensnare
and they shall remind me of how beautiful life is
if only i drop the veil of rationality from my sight.

Just me, by myself ...

Hellooozzz lovely people !!

Well I didnt have internet for sometime , so i couldn't study :) and had been studying the whole day .. so i thought hell! y not!.. lets do something I like, some me time ! so here it goes... putting my mind into words...
I dimmed the lights, made some tea... set the mood and started thinking of whats on my mind these days ... what is it that is worth pondering over...

Sitting amidst my sea of words, my comfort zone, the pillar behind my expression
i feel a barge of a million emotions coming through
but how do i put them into paper?
I know the depth behind the words i put on paper
but i sometimes think whether the words understand the strength of my emotion
how do i pick the right tenor to tell you how I feel?

sitting in the shallow darkness of my room
under the dimness of my rustic lamp
the light shines only in the spaces in my mind where i and only i dwell

I glance over on my words, amused
the unscrupulous 'g' , the timid 'i' reflect the light
 I wonder what they're hiding beneath
probably a flurry of my sentiments
to shield them from ever prying eyes
I look deeper into the obscure writing
to decipher , to disentangle the labyrinth of emotion
why i write ? what does it mean?
what does it tell about me ?
how would i describe myself ?

I conceive that ...

i'm a dreamer, i create
i'm human , i feel
i'm adventurous, i survive
i'm a traveller , i behold
i'm a writer, i reflect
i'm a dancer , i breathe
i'm an observer, i perceive
i'm passionate, i desire
i'm humane , i treasure
I'm a sum of all this , and a little bit more...

these moments of introspection, self reflection,
subjugation to the innermost, unbiased contemplation
is when i reveal my true self ...

all i want to be is real,
no pretence,  no hidden armour between Me and me
not a replica, not a conformist
not a hoax , not a mask
but just me, a place where i shall find myself
a place where i shall have all my answers
a place where i shall find peace.

My love for Kullu :)

Through my rain stained window
in the steamy quietness of my room
I see the city with a renewed perception
It has never looked so beautiful before
The shimmering lights illuminate the dark
As if the stars have descended on earth
contouring the mountain in sparkles

If my eyes were enough to capture this moment
if my memory could fixate the feeling to savour forever
the chubby sweetness of the fresh wind
the lazy frivolousness of the deceitful lime coloured sun
God has blessed me with a life and a heart that keeps me hoping for more

Will I ever come back to this place, to this moment
Or should I freeze it in time
do i deserve to know the answer
if life brings me back here i shall immerse myself in this profuse ambience
if not then let me hold on to this feeling a second longer
Let it enrich my memories
let it embed my future travels
let me learn how this place smells
this place that has given me a home

for now I have leapt forward
my mind wanders the world
with the hope of returning some day,
I have left , to see the world.

to spring!

in the stillness , i see you 

in the stoic solidarity of trees ... I feel your presence...

in the ethereal beauty of the approaching season... I see you

I rejoice their unvoiced exhilaration

i'm delirious in their inaudible euphoria

embellishing in their lusciousness for your welcome in auburn profuse

i feel you in the suns luminescence

underneath the dry crushed foliage

i see a promis sprout

In my vision, i envision...

a mesmerizing blue sky lit with soulful golden hues

I see the exuberance sprouting in green sweet nothings in tufts around me

Within my realm as i see it now...

in the auspicious stillness.... i see you

cant find a title

And somewhere in the hollow medley of broken voices,

ruptured hearts and punctuated silence

when the heart assuages between the fire and cold 

when the eyes pierce through the reflection in the mirror 

when the ominous reverie is broken 

when the scathing introspection is complete

when the perspective is sharper 

and the world becomes pellucid 

when the inward becomes emphatically discernible to the peripheral conscious 

and the mind becomes more profound

Is when my heart starts to beat again

more vibrantly , more passionately 

it reverberates unheard melodies to my ears

it strikes on unnamed chords 

it pirouettes on capricious grounds

and then I hear a promise spring

It makes me walk in a frenzy , the air seems delirious

its replete with the quintessence of a woman's heart

and i fathom that I have changed , i have metamorphosed 

and hence, I walk and walk , and I never want to stop now…

unfinished business!

A drop of honey mixed in dew...

my mornings many a few,

A hint of mint in my dreams,

as light & frothy my coffee could be,

so strange and stringent in my path,

I dunno how long I would last,

I try to begin a new step,

but lie down in my bed instead,

that is how i could be

lovely spirited and free.

 a speck of gold in my eye

a million fireflies guiding me by

the first day at home

sun rolling back its veil slowly

i feel the warmth on my face

missed this the most while i was away

the rays dance on my skin, revealing subtle secrets 

facets of light gliding down like diamonds in the river stream

i radiate from within, wear my heart on my sleeve today

i hope nobody wears me down today

i look for colored vibes within the labyrinth of grayish hues

i gravitate towards the most vibrant one

I feel different , i feel renewed… im a different person now

y should i conform …

desire to taste all flavors life holds in its abundance…

y should i get boggled down with what is expected out of me?

want to carry my life in a rucksack and explore within and outside…

yester years tedious routines, i now welcome openly

the monotony of tasks feels familiar and relaxing

how could it feel so good?

its therapeutic to my mind which surprises me 

but im happy till it lasts..

how many lives do i live in parallel simultaneously

how many times do i start over, how many lives do i leave behind..

my soul takes me wherever it wants to go

there is pleasure in the mundaneness of life… so intriguing…

set out , and discover new places, know myself more…