Thursday, May 2, 2013

Just me, by myself ...

Hellooozzz lovely people !!

Well I didnt have internet for sometime , so i couldn't study :) and had been studying the whole day .. so i thought hell! y not!.. lets do something I like, some me time ! so here it goes... putting my mind into words...
I dimmed the lights, made some tea... set the mood and started thinking of whats on my mind these days ... what is it that is worth pondering over...

Sitting amidst my sea of words, my comfort zone, the pillar behind my expression
i feel a barge of a million emotions coming through
but how do i put them into paper?
I know the depth behind the words i put on paper
but i sometimes think whether the words understand the strength of my emotion
how do i pick the right tenor to tell you how I feel?

sitting in the shallow darkness of my room
under the dimness of my rustic lamp
the light shines only in the spaces in my mind where i and only i dwell

I glance over on my words, amused
the unscrupulous 'g' , the timid 'i' reflect the light
 I wonder what they're hiding beneath
probably a flurry of my sentiments
to shield them from ever prying eyes
I look deeper into the obscure writing
to decipher , to disentangle the labyrinth of emotion
why i write ? what does it mean?
what does it tell about me ?
how would i describe myself ?

I conceive that ...

i'm a dreamer, i create
i'm human , i feel
i'm adventurous, i survive
i'm a traveller , i behold
i'm a writer, i reflect
i'm a dancer , i breathe
i'm an observer, i perceive
i'm passionate, i desire
i'm humane , i treasure
I'm a sum of all this , and a little bit more...

these moments of introspection, self reflection,
subjugation to the innermost, unbiased contemplation
is when i reveal my true self ...

all i want to be is real,
no pretence,  no hidden armour between Me and me
not a replica, not a conformist
not a hoax , not a mask
but just me, a place where i shall find myself
a place where i shall have all my answers
a place where i shall find peace.









1 comment:

  1. "but i sometimes think whether the words understand the strength of my emotion"..Awesome!

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