Saturday, April 27, 2013

My love for Kullu :)

Through my rain stained window
in the steamy quietness of my room
I see the city with a renewed perception
It has never looked so beautiful before
The shimmering lights illuminate the dark
As if the stars have descended on earth
contouring the mountain in sparkles

If my eyes were enough to capture this moment
if my memory could fixate the feeling to savour forever
the chubby sweetness of the fresh wind
the lazy frivolousness of the deceitful lime coloured sun
God has blessed me with a life and a heart that keeps me hoping for more

Will I ever come back to this place, to this moment
Or should I freeze it in time
do i deserve to know the answer
if life brings me back here i shall immerse myself in this profuse ambience
if not then let me hold on to this feeling a second longer
Let it enrich my memories
let it embed my future travels
let me learn how this place smells
this place that has given me a home

for now I have leapt forward
my mind wanders the world
with the hope of returning some day,
I have left , to see the world.

to spring!

in the stillness , i see you 
in the stoic solidarity of trees ... I feel your presence...
in the ethereal beauty of the approaching season... I see you
I rejoice their unvoiced exhilaration
i'm delirious in their inaudible euphoria
embellishing in their lusciousness for your welcome in auburn profuse
i feel you in the suns luminescence
underneath the dry crushed foliage
i see a promis sprout
In my vision, i envision...
a mesmerizing blue sky lit with soulful golden hues
I see the exuberance sprouting in green sweet nothings in tufts around me
Within my realm as i see it now...
in the auspicious stillness.... i see you

cant find a title

And somewhere in the hollow medley of broken voices,
ruptured hearts and punctuated silence
when the heart assuages between the fire and cold 
when the eyes pierce through the reflection in the mirror 
when the ominous reverie is broken 
when the scathing introspection is complete
when the perspective is sharper 
and the world becomes pellucid 
when the inward becomes emphatically discernible to the peripheral conscious 
and the mind becomes more profound
Is when my heart starts to beat again
more vibrantly , more passionately 
it reverberates unheard melodies to my ears
it strikes on unnamed chords 
it pirouettes on capricious grounds
and then I hear a promise spring
It makes me walk in a frenzy , the air seems delirious
its replete with the quintessence of a woman's heart
and i fathom that I have changed , i have metamorphosed 
and hence, I walk and walk , and I never want to stop now…

unfinished business!

A drop of honey mixed in dew...
my mornings many a few,
A hint of mint in my dreams,
as light & frothy my coffee could be,
so strange and stringent in my path,
I dunno how long I would last,
I try to begin a new step,
but lie down in my bed instead,
that is how i could be
lovely spirited and free.

 a speck of gold in my eye
a million fireflies guiding me by

the first day at home

sun rolling back its veil slowly
i feel the warmth on my face
missed this the most while i was away
the rays dance on my skin, revealing subtle secrets 
facets of light gliding down like diamonds in the river stream
i radiate from within, wear my heart on my sleeve today
i hope nobody wears me down today
i look for colored vibes within the labyrinth of grayish hues
i gravitate towards the most vibrant one
I feel different , i feel renewed… im a different person now
y should i conform …
desire to taste all flavors life holds in its abundance…
y should i get boggled down with what is expected out of me?
want to carry my life in a rucksack and explore within and outside…

yester years tedious routines, i now welcome openly
the monotony of tasks feels familiar and relaxing
how could it feel so good?
its therapeutic to my mind which surprises me 
but im happy till it lasts..
how many lives do i live in parallel simultaneously
how many times do i start over, how many lives do i leave behind..
my soul takes me wherever it wants to go
there is pleasure in the mundaneness of life… so intriguing…
set out , and discover new places, know myself more… 

movie star

She essays the role of a movie actress
she sways and swathes across the street
she enters the bar oblivious of the eyes that follow her
her scent lingers in the air she walks
i swoon in my seat while my eyes feast on her beauty
her translucent skin washes away all that is around her
her radiance marks her aura
all that is good in this world is embodied in her soul
her eyes betray her stance
she looks like a woman whose lived a thousand lives
but that adds to the enigma of this woman.

She would never give me another glance
I sit there with a pint in my hand and a scowl on my face
My world zillions of light years away from her
In the dust and heat ,i work all day
my hands coarse, my eyes bitter 
my sole entity an archetype of a spiteful man
how could she look at me

If only I could sear my heart and make her see
that I carry the heart of a youthful boy
all I have but love to give her
if only I could make her see

for years and years I've seen her passing through the same street
for years I've heard my heart skip a beat
i've worshipped the very ground she walks
blessed to breathe the air she breathes 
she left the city in the dew hours of the morning with a boy 
who was half the man the village people so told
but the pain that singed my heart 
was witness to the fire ablating my heart

I sat in the bar imprisoned by my tribulation
with a pint in  my hand and a scowl on my face
All that remains now is the carcass of her memory

An attempt

I sit down to write a poem…
unintelligible words rumbling off my head
trying to grope them in the air 
barely making a coherent sentence
still there 're stuck in my head

I try to think how many times does the inspiration hit me
to sit down to string a key of words
in the midst of a coffee ,sleepy eyes and my mundane nights
juggling through pretentious self proclaimed poets files
i make sense invade my head
to sit down to strew a string of words

i stare at my screensaver waiting for epiphanies to hit me
i've never done more soul searching more than now
so many insecurities,triumphs and memories to talk about
yet my mind chooses to stay numb

Procrastinating seems like a good word to start
whether to exercise it or utilize it
the agony of churning my brains to yield a rhyme 
makes me realize that my aspirations to produce a poem
have been spurned by this doggerel
but still i applaud at my attempt
such is the perplexity of a lazy mind..


if i can capture the way this place looks like today
if i could freeze the picturesque beauty of this day
through my camera lens , i see life coming to a stand still
the bluest hue of the sky, the verdant tenor of the grass,
the mellifluous entwining of twittering 
the wind caressing the tips of proud blades of grass stretched towards the sun
winding them surreptitiously  in their delight

my love

my love abound..flows endlessly your direction,,, do u feel it
rousing through my body like currents …
does it feel new, does it feel fresh
like a thousand pellets of raindrops the heaven bestows on us..
does it feel like a rush of blood to ur face

wind rustles through ur hair…whispers my name in ur ear
does it feel like mine, does it titillate my memory...
do you feel my caress when the wind cradles you

my love abound… weaves intricate secrets in my heart…
makes me blush when i think of u 
my heart sings a rhythm alien to me
does it feel like me ...
ur hands… fathom the surge of emotions through me…
is it me or somebody new
my love abound … draws me to u 
ur eyes bewitch me, can't move, I can't breathe
i breathe in the air i'm not acquainted with… coz its not awashed with u

i flow with the love that emanates from within
it gushes and rushes me 
I walk in a reverie to see you
when u see me,when u feel me
i will remain the same….for you
but i cnt control cascading with the wind….
it drapes me, takes me along
it breaks the semblance of my soul
it plays a melancholic harmony ..tugs at my dormant heart strings
my heartbeat dances on an unfamiliar tune..

my love abound… flows in ur direction… do u feel it….does it hold u still??
see me… open ur eyes, im the same but just new…
touch me once again, im here infront of u …

u find the banalities of life tedious…
I live in that moment just to look at you
in the monochrome of empty promises, ur words still enamor me
Just one more time, hold me near ,touch my soul
my love abound … i am the same 

the road..

often followed the road that does not reveal itself
it just takes you along plays with ur path
i have followed one all my life knowing ill reach somewhere 
but this time i don't know if i should have taken one

 it twists and turns so much 
that i can't keep up with the swaying tandem
its hard to keep track of where i've been 
when i have always been focussed on where to go..
trying to look back in the footsteps where i got lost and where i found a way
to give assurance to my pulsating heart
that i will reach the end of this one some day

this road has taken me to so many places that the familiar feels unfamiliar , home doesn't feel like home,
unexpected unknown places feel strangely familiar
i solicit unknown faces ..because the past can be lost in the newness of faces
there is solace nowhere , i hope i find it here
yet i want this road to keep taking me along
because the past can be forgotten in the newness of places
the un-forgotten can be forgotten
the promise of the road lights my soul
cause i don't want to look behind anymore

take me home, take me somewhere where i can find home,
what is lost was meant to be lost… 
what will come along will be accepted
for i don't want this journey to end this soon
cause the promise of the road lights my soul
till the road ends i shall look for home 
take me somewhere that i will call home

some more

does the heart stop to start again..
does the mind stop to think again

moments treasured in time keep unfolding again and again…
my heart starts beating again…
the lock to these memories opens every now and then..
does the heart stop to feel again

does life stop to start again
my life races forward, years pass never ceases
but my mind races backwards… while my soul waits in the mayhem
peeling my yester years off my skin , locking memories from the past 
why doesn't life halt and start again..

people say its a changing world ..but have i changed?
even in the darknes ,in the mind thinks of the past
freedom of thought of living has always come at a cost..
but where does all this stop .. when can i breathe again...

does the mind die … to begin again…
a barrage of memories flood through the thresholds of patience and composure..
do they empty the basins of my mind to fill again..
absurd is the human mind , never ceases ,never moves forward
nevee rests, never stays in peace… destroys yet rebuilds..
i wonder how will i be when patched together again

My old poems

In the midst of a stormy night, I see a flickering light
A staggering sight in the midst of a stormy night 
My tempestuous soul breathes finally 

in the cacophony of the gusty wind 
it stands, recluse in a stoic silence
to unobservant eyes
but i do see it, i do feel it 
i see it battling ,
I see my reflection, i feel liberated

it burns my cocoon, it frees my spirit
i see the world in its unmasked form
my spirit is whisked away by glories this world has to offer
but i stay enamored by this adversary i met on this stormy night

no matter how many journeys I set sail to
no matter how many seasons pass by
I shall return to this place
For this is what has defined me
this is where it all began. 

to great future possibilities...! :)

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