Moments of misplaced emotions, emotions of misplaced moments

somewhere in my hallway

i hear footsteps approaching my door

the louder they get , the harder my heart beats

somebody calls out my name from across the hall

the voice echoes within the walls of my mind

trying to search for a familiarity, 

to put together the syllables to help me see that soul

but i can't discern the difference

if its u or not

slowly the vaguely familiar voice reaches the corners of my heart

the place that i keep hidden from the world

it triggers the memory of the dew eyed girl i keep concealed

under the shroud of maturity and composure 

but suddenly my heart stutters

to my surprise ,it skips a beat

my face comes to life

and my eyes gleam

i hear my name again 

and my heart plunges into a flurry of emotions

swirling twirling ,

crippling my poise 

reigniting my long lost self

is it destiny, de ja vu or memories from across time

i walk towards the door 

should i open it?

or should i wait a second longer

I'm walking on a thin line

the time draws on me

but i don't want to decide just yet

i want to stand across the door

make that voice flame my senses

and hear my name once again

I'm anxious to see the eyes that search for me, I'm nervous to find out more

should i just relish this moment in time

or should i open this door?

my heart softens, the dew eyed girl comes to the fore

it is in this moment she comes to life

if i could embody my emotions

if someone could personify what i feel

u would see

oh! you would so clearly see 

the difference between the surface and the inside

of how much i disguise , of how much i leave undisguised

of how much i drown the voice of my own heart

of how different i am than what appears ..

i delay the moment , purposely

i'm exhilarated and anxious in these moments trapped in time

time trapped between the sound of the syllables

the time when you stop to catch your breath

the time in which i can gather myself from the moment of delirium

while anxiously wishing ur still there

how , why, when..

are the words that perplex me

but i push the thoughts away

because I know the importance of this moment

across the hall

inches from me 

inches from my heart

freezing these moments in time

is the unfamiliar person with a familiar voice

but if you knew, if you only knew

the gravity in me, the brevity of this moment

you would stay …

i cannot fathom the saneness in this moment

of why the world stops and stares

its the way i feel right now

is all i really care

i don't now when reality would dawn

or when i get my composure back

i let my feeble spirit , that fragile girl over power

before lifes trivialities bring the coherence back

the veil would be up again, the world will seem the same again

till you come knocking back….